I’ve struggled with perfectionism for a long time. It wasn’t until today that I really thought about why and where it came from in my life. When I really think about why I feel the need to “prefect” something, I came to realize that what I am actually trying to do is create no room for errors or failures. I remember in 3rd grade I would write a report in cursive and be 80% done with the report and end up throwing it away ( instead of erasing my mistakes ) and start all over. These would be reports/essays that would be 3 pages long which is a huge feat for a 3rd grader. I felt that erasing my errors wasn’t a perfect paper, so each time I made a mistake I would just start completely over. I recall doing this at least 10 times with 1 such paper. Multiple
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